When I finished my yoga teacher training at Yoga Yoga I was filled with inspiration. I was ready to go. Ready to spread that amazingness to everyone. I was going to use yoga in my practice, I was going to do a research study on yoga, I was going to run a group on yoga with kids. I had lots of ideas.
Let's say... my head had lots of ideas.
I made a flier, I posted about the group on facebook and sent out an email blast. You know what I did then?
Let me also tell you what I didn't do. I didn't talk excitedly about the group to people I bumped into. I didn't work on outlining the group beyond the first session. I didn't contact schools. I didn't contact parents. I didn't follow-up anywhere on any electronic media at all.
This ending is going to surprise you, so hold on: the group didn't make. I hooked in two people, declared it a failure, and shut it down.
Before you shake your head, let me fill you in on a few important details: I had a 1 year old and a 4 year old at home and just recently took on a new contractor in my therapy business. I had my hands full of taking care of people and setting things up and getting things going.
I was spent. I was emotionally and physically exhausted. My 1 year old wasn't sleeping through the night (neither was my four year old) and I was running on dreams and fumes. Everything I had was going to my family and my existing clients. Nothing was left to create or manifest new clients.
This is the story of what happens when the head gets ideas that the heart and energy can't back up. We can't just decide we want clients. Or say, "I'm going to take on more clients." Believe it or not, we are not limitless. We have to give ourselves more do do more: more love, more care, more rest, more sleep, more nutrition.
Unfortunately, this isn't the only time something like this has happened in my private practice. Sometimes we humans are stubborn learners. But! I have since learned that I must tune in to myself and my energy before making plans to move forward. I don't always remember to do it, but by George I do it a lot more than I used to.
The key to tuning inward is carving out time and space to do so. This is part of what has made me more successful at listening to myself, and therefore at having a successful practice. We can' t fire off a text message to our inner truth to find out how we are doing today. Unfortunately, it takes more practice to listen to ourselves. It must be something we value and decide to set aside time to do. If you must, think of it as part of your job. For you to be truly wise, you must be still or quiet to hear what is happening within. I'd love to hear how you are listening this month, and what you are learning. Please leave me a comment or jump on to facebook and let me know. I'd love to support you in carving out this space.